How do you live past something while you’re still in it?

How can you be so happy while still hurting from a heavy loss?

How can you be so proud of your body and your spirit yet still struggle against inadequacy and wondering if you’ll ever be “enough” for someone else?

How do you celebrate one of the most meaningful years of your life and still wish you didn’t have to go through it?

How are you the strongest you’ve ever been yet also the most tender?

To be honest, I’m not really sure… but I’m doin’ it! 🙌

This season is so different. There aren’t many physical updates to show because most of the change is within.

The bulk of my treatment is done, but I still have a looming huge surgery up ahead of me and years of hormone treatment to prevent against recurrence. Cancer will continue to impact my life, two of the most meaningful to me being the ways in which it will impact my relationship with my future husband and us as parents.

I’m living in the space in between. In between true joy and grief, in between immovable courage and disruptive fear, right in the middle of turning the page. Not one or the other, not one chapter or the next, but both.

I’m not quite sure how to capture that in a photo, so I haven’t tried lately. But I did my best today to just show you me in the space in between. The space that holds a girl poured out into the pages of a breast cancer devotional. The space that holds the end of a book but a story that is still being written.

This piece of me and the stories of 15 stunning warrior women included in this devotional will be released so soon❤️ the cover of the book is hiding right behind that little heart!

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